Lighting a cigarette with the butt of my last.
Over exaggerated smiles to the ghosts of my past.
Pretending I don't seem them,
Ignoring they exist,
Even though they left their mark on my heart and my wrists
The feeling of needing something I can never have is killing me faster than the smokes in my bag.
Wanna clear my head,
Wanna erase you from it,
But your smile and your eyes keep flooding it.
How you made me feel was an indescribable bliss,
They way you changed my purpose with that first kiss.
Every time I write, I write about you.
Even when I swear to myself it's something I won't do.
Never again,
He's gone now for good.
No more torturing myself,
I will move on like you said I would.
But never the less
Every time I hold a pen,
Your lips, and your eyes, and your hips, and your lies, come scribbling out of it again.
I have spent so much time trying to define our love.
Did I imagine you?
Or were you really sent from above to teach me things,
Like love, and addiction, and fate, and pain?
How could something that feels so good be so bad for me?
You made me feel alive despite the fact that in hind sight you were deadly.
But I live, and walk, and moan, and stalk
You
Like a zombie.
But I don't want to eat your brain,
Just devour your thoughts and absorb your pain.
Rip open your mind
And sink my teeth into the memories of you and me
Then spit them out at your feet.
Because how could a boy like you forget a girl like me?
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